Friday, December 16, 2016

Hello Darkness, My Old Friend





Sorry.
The darkness is back. 
The winter blues have returned. 
The swirling vortex of worthlessness is in charge.
Circling the drain is my catch phrase. 
I was hoping it would skip me, but it's back and it seems like with a vengeance this year. 
I think having to find Tank another home has really put me in more of a funk than usual. 
I know it will pass.
I know it will end.
I just wish I knew when.
Suck it, Tobias.




P.S. Tobias is the name I have given my depression. 




I will persevere. I will keep me moving forward. I will be the stream. 



9 comments:

Jon said...

Sorry to hear that. It will end somehow. Take care.

the dogs' mother said...

xoxoxoxoxox loves to you and the family.

silly rabbit said...

Well crap. I'm sorry. Tobias is an ass. Did this Tobias blue himself too? Hugs Shife

Stephen Hayes said...

It's easy to feel depressed at this time of year. I find that staring into the faces of excited holiday-enjoying children helps.

jenny_o said...

Aw crap ... I'm so sorry. I'd agree that giving away Tank is probably mixed in there. So ... depression plus grief = pretty powerful. One day at a time, my friend. Please take care of yourself. Have you tried the technique where you deliberately repeat positive statements to interrupt the negative flow of thoughts? Sounds silly but it helps stop the brain from laying down stronger negative pathways. Kind of like interrupting the pain cycle. Or the one where you become your own mentor - take care of your inner self the way you'd take care of someone else. Anyway, take care and be kind to yourself.

Valerie said...

You always cheer me up with your lovely comments so I hope to do the same for you xx So ... HUGE HUGS FOR MATT. I am not even going to try and think up a remedy, just sending more hugs to help you through the darker moments. You'll find that I have that special touch that promotes the occasional smile.

Design Goddess said...

Hello,old blogging friend. Funny how the world works. I was looking at FB, where a memory took me to blogger, and a time when I sent Cher a random "thinking of you" card. Then, I look at her blogroll, and the first person on her list is you...her fake baby daddy! 😂 I click on the link and find this post.

All I can say is I understand how you're feeling. Tobias is a jerk, who thinks he can just show up unannounced and overstay his welcome. You try to give subtle hints that it's time for him to leave, but he's like "that guy" who just can't seem to pick up on social cues and make a graceful exit. Oh no! You have to try with all your might to pack him up, and shove him out the door. Yet, he digs his feet in and holds on to the door frame with all his might, as you're pushing with all yours. Then, after all that, it's like he becomes a bored teenager and just leaves. What a jerk! I hope he takes his leave soon for you. Until then, punch him in the face for me a few times. 💜

E. Rosewater said...

sorry to hear about tobias.

watching the dude and walter might give some temporary relief.

kden said...

This time of year is bitter-sweet. Excited for things to come and sad for what has been/not been. Wishing your entire family an uplifting joyful Christmas.