I don't know what it is about this time of year but I just get a little blue.
Self-doubt, sad, unmotivated, indifferent, negative and just all-around blah.
A little voice inside my head just telling me that I am worthless.
I know this is not true but when you are feeling melancholy you tend to be irrational.
A friend of mine gave me some advice and said I should give this voice a name.
And then after I give it a name, then tell it to shut the hell up and suck it.
I calling my that negative voice Tobias.
I was going to go with Funky because I always say to myself that I must have eaten some funky charms when I am miserable. However, I thought I could do better than that. Then Funky reminded of Fünke, which was the last name of one of the characters on one of my favorite shows "Arrested Development." His first name was Tobias.
I also apologize because it seems like every now and then I bring up the depression topic, and I am sure you have better things to do than hear about my gloom and doom.
When it does flare up I take my meds but sometimes they just are not enough to get me over the hump.
I am just glad it only happens every now and then because otherwise I would be obese. Usually my sweet tooth is activated during these periods of unhappiness, and I will polish off a half-gallon of ice cream or in this case nearly the entire frosted strawberry sheet cake that Kyle made.
So that is that. Oh before I forget, Tobias shut the hell up and suck it.
Hope all is well with you.
I will persevere. I will keep moving forward. I will be the stream.