T-Minus 4 Days

I was expecting to have more thoughts and feelings about turning 50 as I counted down the days but COVID-19 had different ideas.
It feels a little insensitive to share some of my insecurities and fears about hitting the big 5-0 when there are bigger fish to fry.


Of course, I could also talk about it and give myself a break from reality.


Yes, I can.
Up your butt, COVID-19.
You can't ruin my pity party.


With all that being said, I am seriously feeling alright about it. 
I have legitimate concerns about more crackling joints, plummeting acuity, evaporating memories,
3 am potty breaks and a further receding of the hairline. 
But it will be OK. 
The crackling joints?
I am taking better care of myself than I did when I was 40 and I think that is going to help me with the aging process. 
Plummeting acuity?
Let's be honest, I wasn't that sharp anyway.
Evaporating memories?
This is the one I am most worried about.
I have walked into rooms and forget why I was there.
But the neighbors were OK with it and I was just glad I wasn't wearing my chaps. 


3 am potty breaks?
Maybe it will help me become a morning person.
A further receding of the hairline? 
I can always join the club.


Regardless, I hear I am going to get some excellent AARP benefits. 





I hope to do better tomorrow.
Stay safe, take care and thanks for being there.

I will persevere. I will keep moving forward. I will be the stream. 






Comments

Bea said…
Not to horn in on your BIG 5-0 pity party, but mine's in T-Minus *looks for calculator then gives up* one-hundred some odd days.

While I see that there is some overlap around what's happening and what's to come for both of us, I take some comfort in the fact that I will never need to become a Hair Club for (Wo)men member.
JACKIESUE said…
50? I have underwear older than that..
Well, Bdays should always be celebrated. That's my credo, anyway.
As you say, there's so many much bigger fish to fry (that gif was terrifying!) and most of the things that come with having one more bday are well, natural? We won't be 20 forever.
Also, remember Rocco... *wink*.

XOXO
Valerie said…
Now listen to me, young man. You don't grow old, you will find that you grow younger with age.
Not kidding either, just you wait and see.
Have a nice day.
Jon said…
I definitely understand a little apprehension approaching the big 5-0. I decided to go with my 40th and rang it in watching Jim Dalton play in Tucson after a cross country flight. It sounds like you've got a good handle on approaching 50.
Happy Tuesday.
That is one big fish!
xoxo :-)
Bonnie said…
I understand your concern but I also have no doubt your 50s will shine. I once thought the 50s were old but now that I'm working towards 68 I realize how wrong I was about the 50s. In fact, I'm even beginning to think that the 70s aren't actually *that* old. Besides we don't have much choice, do we? One thing I have learned that is often said but oh so true - "Use it or lose it." And that applies to EVERYTHING!
Joanne Noragon said…
When I was fifty, it was my daughter who was upset. She said to me, "Do you realize how old that makes me!" And so I turned fifty just to annoy her.
Tanza Erlambang said…
aww....big fish, I never see in my life...

Jeff said…
That looks like one those cats they catch out of the Mekong River! 50 ain't so bad--I turned 60 a few years ago and yes, I was a little slow this morning, but I also paddled a good 10 miles yesterday and half of it into a 15+ knot breeze! btw, the AARP card came when I was 49.5, but I never joined.

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kden said…
I must have diminishing memories because I don't even remember my 50th! You will slide into it unscathed and your kids will always keep you young.