I am in mourning as I had a friend pass away on January 1.
There have been tears, laughs, anger, fatigue, regret, guilt, doubt and a lot of sadness the past two days.
One thing that has resonated with me as I am dealing with all of these emotions is a quote from the "Life of Pi": "I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye."
Well I was not able to take a moment to say goodbye.
My friend became suddenly ill. He was rushed to ICU on Dec. 28. He passed away on Jan. 1. He was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia (AML), and the measures they used to try to make him better ultimately took him away because he was too weak for the chemotherapy
The world lost a good one.
A family has lost a father, husband, son, and a whole bunch of people are missing a dear friend.
My friend's death came too early and it is a reminder that we never know when the sun will set on us.
So as we start the new year and resolutions are made, I plan on making sure the people that matter to me know how important they are so we don't have the regret or pain of not having said that goodbye.
It seems to me that all of the nice words that are spoken at a funeral are spoken too late for the man who is dead. People need to hear these things while they are above ground.
Don’t take anything for granted. You just never know. Life is short and precious and you must treat every day like it is a gift because it is. Easier said than done as it is so easy to get wrapped up in all the bull shit that is life, but if you can, and I know you can, try really, really hard to live out your dreams and do those things that you have been putting off. Make your dash count.
I am dating myself with this picture but here I am with my friend, Dave. Just enjoying life and neither of us having a clue about what is waiting for us around the corner. I don't know where the rest of my days will take me but I know Dave will be disappointed in me if I did not try to honor him by making the most out of my remaining days. Rest in Peace Dave Freer. You will most certainly be missed.
I will persevere. I will keep moving forward. I will be the stream.