Friday, April 16, 2010

Countdown to 40 - Day 16

We are less than 7 days away and I am doing OK. I have been thinking about my Mom quite a bit and mostly because every day I just miss her and because I know she would have surprised me somehow on my birthday. She might have flown in for my party or had someone play a joke on me about turning 40 because she is silly like that. And she definitely would have sent over some gag gifts about getting older. I know there will be surprises on my birthday but it was always nice talking to my Mom because it is a special day for me and her. She was all alone in the world while she gave birth to me in a military hospital because my biological dad was overseas in Vietnam. We were very, very close from the beginning because I was pretty sick as a baby, and my biological dad ended up abandoning us. In the end it all worked out but she had to be so strong for both of us and I can't imagine how scared she might have been. Only 21 and having to take care of a little guy and your husband just divorced you. Like I said in the end we survived and now I am going to be 40. Anyway I know she is in a better place but a little selfishness creeps in and I just wish I could have her for one more day. She will let me know somehow in someway that she is thinking of me because ever since she passed away I have felt her presence.
Not really a great segue but I was going to talk about what I will do on my birthday. Well I mentioned that we are having a party, and beyond that there are only 3 things I am certain of on the day of my birth. I will tell Mrs. Shife, Baby Shife, and Quincy that I love them and thank them for making me feel special, I will call one of my best friends from college who was born on the same day, and I will drink a few beers at about 12:01 am on April 24 while I watch "The Big Lebowski."
Until tomorrow, have a good one and not on the rug, man.

9 comments:

Red said...
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Ms. Moon said...

I am not your mother but I AM a mother and I can tell you with certainty that you made your mother happier than anything else in her whole life.
And I've said this before and I'll say it again- she would have been so proud of you and she would have loved that baby of yours so much that you have no idea.

Red said...

Sorry for the multiple posts. My browser was freaking out and I kept getting a blogger error message.

Mr. Shife said...

Thank you Ms. Moon for the gracious and kind words. Everything you said is true and I know it will be OK but just been thinking and missing her a lot lately.

No worries Red. Thanks for stopping by the blog.

billy pilgrim said...

you'll have to have an extra beer in memory of donny and maybe go bowling, but follow the rules.

Valerie said...

Hugs are all I can offer, Shifey. Remembering your Mom now and every day with love in your heart is worth more than anything. Make sure you have a wonderful birthday, for her sake.

Limon Partido said...

Counting down with you on your birthday Shife..and as a mother I also can add that you brought more joy to your mom than you can imagine...just like your little guy is bringing to yours. You'll see the universe will send you a sign that your mom is still watching over you...

Megan said...

Oh, man. I am at my folks right now and my mom was bugging the...well, anyway she was a little out of line earlier, and now I just want to go give her a hug but she's passed out...